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March 29, 2012

yang DiNiat

"Sesungguhnya setiap amal itu bergantung kepada niatnya, dan sesungguhnya seseorang itu hanya mendapatkan sesuai dengan apa yang diniatkannya..."

Andai kita niat yang tidak baik, dan tidak sempat melakukannya, Allah tidak mengiranya sebagai satu dosa, dan andai kita niat yang tidak baik then on the way atau sedang melakukannya, ianya dianggap sesuatu yang berdosa...

Betapa sweetnya Dia kepada kita, segala ketidaksengajaan yang kita terbuat InsyaAllah akan dimaafkanNya.

Thus, be careful on what you are planning to do, have the niat that the things that were planned must because of Him and His order... Live your life with His colours on your Clothings and Behaviours so not to get our niat lost in the wrong way, in the wrong direction...

March 28, 2012

Temper that being controLed

Can you be as patience as Nabi Muhammad SAW? He got through a lots of bad things till the last of his breath.

A question that being asked to myself since I started learning that temper is not a good stuff to deal with. In deed, it just make your lifespan shorter and have your face look older.

But theres no way, a person can get mad without a reason. Although sometimes it does seems like one, but its not like because there're no reason, its because the reason that cause it cant be seen by you and the person also actually dont have the attention to show or mentioned it to anybody. Its just the nature of a weak human to have some unsatisfaction about certain things that mess up his try-to-shine day.

As for me right now, my best way to have my temper controlled are

to smile each and every time I felt like exploded,
to shut up my mouth each and everytime I felt like shouting or saying something bad,
to closed the 'door of bad imagination' each and everytime the problem involving somebody in my surrounding
to look rather than says
to stay away rather than involve
to just listen rather than voice it out
Try to close all the bad possibilities each and every time I doubt something...

People says it might cause me ended up in the Mental Hospital, but I have the faith in Him and says to myself,

"Each of my patience, there is a reward waiting for me There, at least it can help me erase my past 'mountain big sins', and in His will, will make He proud to have me as His creation..."

"Plus, you can be declared as WIN each time you be patience with somebody that try to challenge your patience..., dont you think so?"

Dear Allah, will You help me get through it nicely...
Help me to have my life goes on in the blessing way?

March 25, 2012

B.U.M - Levi's

"Setelah lebih kurang 3 tahun berkhidmat"
 
 " (^-^*) "

March 24, 2012

Ikan Ikan

The world was made not just for us to stay alone. Theres many people around... Bare it in mind so that you dont step over the line...

Be somebody's friend for the similarities we had as His ultimate creations not because we have 'fishy' 'tricky' reason to do so... Cause each one of us have their own abilities, their own specialties. What we have as an asset for us to benefits others, accept it as our fate that we exist to help him/her complete their life to Jannah...

Smile for the advantages, and dont felt guilty for your own disadvantages cause you know, you worth more than they think you are.

March 22, 2012

We’re not Famous or Special

But we’re just doing what we want,
Right now,
The world that surround us is gray and we cant see our futures,
But for now, we just shut up and run,
To the time that waiting for us…

When I see Your beauty,
My, my, my, my, my heart, Bursts…”

Shut Up Flower Boy Band Ep 16 Final
22nd March 2012

March 21, 2012

Felt so ‘Distanced’

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Its weird when you surrounded with all the people who you like to be with, who cherish all those days with you with smile and laughs, who make you realize how incredible our Creator is for creating them living here with you, but still there are something. Something…
Something that you want more than just these… What else, what your weak heart has to offer ? What your weak Iman has to defend yourself from the thing that stuck like a bubble gum at your tiny powerful brain?

Cherish the moment, be in line with those who want you to be part of them for this time being. There must be a reason why He make you appear in their life now. Skip those who are too busy cause they’re planning their way to Jannah as you are doing too… Dont be to pampered to have them care for you all the time. Cheer up~!

March 20, 2012

Late Waker

Akhir-akhir ni asyik terpaksa dikejutkan oleh orang lain untuk bangun, mungkin penat sangat and maybe cause demam, effect ubat. Maybe jugak sebab hari-hari kebelakangan ni, jadual harian pack dari bangun tidur sampai tidur semula... So Not Good of me. Try to have some rest! >_< mianhea

March 18, 2012

Salji Besar~ 大雪~

At last, Allah bagi peluang tengok salji macam kat dalam tv. The real snowy day. Start to come down at 12.30 midnight last night, I already closed my eyes and hugging my maroon pillow, be in my another little world. Ber'syahid' sekejap di dunia.

Before, hanya renyai-renyai, tapi sudah cukup untuk buat aku terlompat-lompat dalam kelas.

Hari ini bangun, aku menjerit jerit dalam bilik. 'Salji~ Saliji~' roomate bangun, join lompat. XD

Dah excited sangat-sangat..., but, semua orang lain buat tak endah je sebab bagaikan cerita lapuk, its stop snowing and only left the white particles on everything on the street. Tiba-tiba jadi down mood percentage.

Touching sekejap bila tak ada yang kejutkan semalam. Hu2, tak ada yang ingat kami~ Tapi itu namanya tak ada rezeki. Theres no point of crying over a spoiled milk.

Terus buka Facebook, mengharapkan dapat tengok gambar-gambar semalam. Alhamdulillah, inilah keajaibanNya. Salji besar, at the beginning of Spring~

Breakfast belum lagi, dah posting this on here. But a big thanks and Syukur to my Lord, You're the best!

March 17, 2012

The list defeated

Hari ini banyak benda nak buat, banyak bende nak beli, ada banyak perkara baru yang diplan, dan Alhamdulillah semuanya berjalan dengan baik.

Periuk baru, Kuali baru, Sudip baru, mangkuk baru, sudu baru... LOL, macam baru pindah bilik, tapi semuanya dalam list.

Today's schedule pack sangat. Pagi bangun panaskan bubur kacang dan bahagikan kat yang sempat merasa sebab semalam dah niat, walaupun waktu suntuk, nak jugak buat. Pintu bilik kawan-kawan diketuk satu persatu, "Bubur~ bubur~"... Dalam keadaan bangun tidur mereka tersenyum, aku hanya meneruskan aktiviti.
Habis je bubur, pergi IKEA dengan kak family kecik, Kak Saadiah, Aisyah, Ain, Syu dan Hani. Tak pernah menjejak IKEA sebelum ni, naik bas satu jam setengah, Alhamdulillah selamat sampai.

Masa shopping di IKEA, Kak Saadiah banyak bagi pendapat nak beli ape. Alhamdulillah, walaupun agak tergoda dengan benda2 comel di IKEA, tapi still stick with my list.
Tapi hari ini sangat sejuk. Anginnya tidak tapi walaupun sudah pukul 2 petang, sampai balik di bilik, suhu masih 3 darjah.Ummi dan Farah masak, penat, aku join sekali makan. :P

Pukul 4 petang, siap-siap teman Jiji pergi gym... berpeluh banyak mungkin sebab aku baru lepas makan. Lepas dah peluh-peluh, keaadaan makin sejuk, but still aku ada lagi bende dalam list, dah niat nak habiskan list nih hari nih, so, pergi ChaoShiFa. Alhamdulillah, Allah permudahkan, walaupun kawan-kawan agak risau tapi aku nak pergi membeli sorang diri sebab banyak tempat nak singgah, lagipun cuaca agak sejuk dari biasa, segan plak mereka ikut sama-sama. Plus, rase macam nak main hujan. Its been a long time since I experienced hujan camni. Kat rumah takleh main camni, malulah orang kampung tengok, kan dah besar. Tapi kat sini, tak ada yang kisah. Orang cina memang tak suka langsung jaga tepi kain orang lain, but cant deny that some of them were extremely caring.

Finish the small little trip, pukul 6.30 petang berbasikal balik ke hostel. Keadaan dah macam pukul 12.30 malam. Dalam perjalanan ramai yang bercakap tentang '刮大风' (Angin Besar) malam ni. Aku agak gerun, kalau Allah mahukan, semua pun boleh jadi, jadi aku speed-up basikal, mengharapkan sampai asrama dengan selamat. woot woot sampai. List dah kosong... \(^0^)/

Mandi-mandi, solat, pukul 8.30malam keluar untuk main badminton dengan family kecik. Perjalanan kami diiringi hujan yang romantik dan payung yang comel. Macam ber'adventure' plak rasenye. Masuk-masuk, nampak ramai orang, mula-mula segan nak main, tapi bila tengok diorang pun taklah pro sangat, bermain hanya sekadar beriadah, jadi lagi semangat. Kami ketawa, kami menjerit, pukul bulu tangkis sampai termasuk gelanggang orang lain. Hi3, tapi nilah pengalaman. Tak pernah main badminton dekat hall U sebelum ni, mase main, excited lah sangat sampai berpeluh-peluh macam lari 200 meter. Kik3... Alhamdulillah, pukul 10 malam kami berjalan balik.

Sampai bilik ada meeting kecik tentang apa yang nak dilakukan masa cuti musim panas nanti. InsyaAllah, kami hanya mampu merancang dan Allah yang menentukan. Weather forecast cakap esok salji. Bila aku bagitahu yang lain ada yang tak percaya dan ada yang cakap tak mungkin kerana sekarang sudah masuk waktu Musim Bunga. But, who's knows, kan.

Kak suruh mandi, selepas balik sebab bila main hujan, takut demam. So, seperti yang dijanjikan, mandi dan tidur... Ya Allah, hari ini Kau penuhkan dan permudahkan hari aku, dan aku amat bersyukur dengannya. Terima Kasih Sweet <3

Im that kind of human

Akulah manusia itu, yang sukar mengerti erti kesyukuran, yang alpa dan mudah lupa, yang hilang dek arah, hilang dek senang, hilang dek ganjaran dan kemewahan...

What I have here in my mind that makes me still awake? I dont felt like sleeping in any way... Many things happened today. Some making me felt amazing and some were just a part of the 'silent mode' stuff...

I used to stick this yellow memo on my bedroom's door since I was 14
( its the time when I start to feel separated from the world )
"Apabila bicara adalah perak, maka DIAM adalah EMAS..."
Its when I felt some distanced from the surrounding and there who always there for me is only Him.

Im losing this memo from my mind since I started to move away from my little special room in my lovely house, to my college dull white room. Till now, I really miss that sentence being paste at the door. Just to look at it every time I step away from my room give me a special strength.

That times somehow  is walking closer to me again. Like a deja-vu. I felt distanced.

The Almighty,
My dear Rabb, make me have some faith in them. Erase the doubt of our ukhwah, erase the unsatisfied and ungrateful feeling of me of having these wonderful people here with me, cause I love them, more than they can imagine...

March 14, 2012

Gym, Erhu & Me

Gym and Erhu ( a Chinese musical instrument) two little things that I never thought will experienced just step into the line of my life recently... Woot woot~ *Blink

*Suddenly crying over a Syrian video... My dear Allah, I love You with all my heart, they were my brothers and sisters there, Instead of sharing the news about how bad the situation there is, Im clueless about what can I do. While Im watching my friends trying to do something great for their life and me myself having my time to the fullest with my activities, hugging the treasure of the new knowledge and experiences that You gave me, I just cant imagine how are they doing there...

March 13, 2012

My New Bike

Its a 440 yuan bike. Semoga rezeki ini adalah rezekiku sehingga akhir hayatnya.

March 12, 2012

Nae Chingu Ya

Hey 내 친구,
You know something? :P

When we are together,
sometimes u makes me laughs and I make you laughs
sometimes u makes me smile and proud to have you as my friend
and sometimes I make you smile and proud to have me as your friend
sometimes u make me ashamed of something that u did,
and I also often make you ashamed of something that I did
sometimes we decided to do crazy stuff that make both of us ashamed of ourselves

Theres also times where,
we pretend to acknowledge each other abilities
we show off about our specialties to each other that make we annoyed to one another

There are
a lot of times we decided that I want to make you shut up
a lot of times we disagree with each other opinions
a lot of times we felt like killing each other
a lot of times we like leaving each other
a lot of times we felt like smashing each other face till bleeding
a lot of times we felt like 'Oh, Its U again~'
a lot of times we felt like 'oh COME ON! what are You thinking!'
a lot of times we come across, 'u lucky to have me as your friend'
a lot of times we come across that perhaps my life will be better without you

But,
at the end, If you not here with me, I will actually smile and then stay silent for a while
just to say
'Hey Come Here, I Need You... It Just Felt like Something wrong somewhere Without You...'

March 11, 2012

The completed Tasks

Check 奖学金 Checked  ^_^
买一辆自行车 Checked  ^_^ ( 看起来想我前的自行车)

然后, 还有多事儿得做完, 不过已经很困。。。 睡觉? 当然! O(∩_∩)O哈哈~ 晚安~

March 10, 2012

The Bright n Dark of me

Used to be sooo crazy about This Stuff...
When Im about to stay away, 'they' keep calling... ( The flexible of me )
May I..., play for a while...? >_<"

Them at Syria

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
Maklumat menyayat hati daripada program 'Syria' yang ada antaranya disampaikan oleh pejuang dari Syria sendiri.
  1. Rakyat Syria telah terseksa lebih 40 tahun sejak zaman Hafiz al-Asad lagi.
  2. Kerajaan bukan sekadar membenci sunni tetapi membenci Islam ( Islamophobia )
  3. Sesiapa yang mengatakn 'AllahuAkbar' akan dibunuh.
  4. Masjid-masjid yang melaungkan 'AllahuAkbar' akan dibom.
  5. Rakyat disuruh kata 'Tuhanku basyar assad'
  6. Kerajaan sekat stesen TV daripada tayang keganasan yang berlaku sampai kalau tengok TV di sana macam tak ada apa2 yang berlaku.
  7. Bayi-bayi dibunuh dan ada yang dipatahkan tulang-tulangnya.
  8. Setiap Jumaat disana akan dinamakan, dan Jumaat lalu dinamakan 'Taslih al Jaisy al Hurriy' yang bermaksud 'membekalkan senjata kepada free syrian army.
  9. Snipers ( penembak ) daripada Rusia, Iran dan China akan menembak orang-orang awam sesuka hati
  10. Sesiapa yang hendak melintas jalan kena lari menyeberangi jalan-jalan, kerana andai sedikit lambat akan kena peluru-peluru penembak.
  11. Antara seksaan kepada rakyat ialah memasukkan hidup-hidup kedalam freezer hingga mati dan lelaki syahid itu telah menulis dengan darahnya sendiri 'Aku dimasukkan kedalam freezer dalam keadaan aku hidup... Sampaikan salamku kepada ibuku...'
  12. Pada 2 Februari 1982, lebih 40 000 umat Islam disembelih pada zaman hafiz al-asad.
  13. Pernah membunuh rakyat-rakyat pada Hari Raya Aidilfitri.
  14. Dalam undang-undang Syria, ahli Ikhwan Muslimin akan dibunuh.
  15. Sesiapa yang mengutuk presiden akan dipenjara 6 bulan.
  16. Hafiz al-asad telah menanam rakyatnya hidup-hidup dalam sepuluh buah kubur besar di Halab.
  17. Tentera Syria tidak dibenarkan solat, puasa dan lain-lain, kerana itulah mereka sangat kejam.
  18. Hizbullah telah mengeluarkan kenyataan bahawa tidak akan menyokong perjuangan rakyat Syria.
  19. Rusia telah membekalkan senjata kepada tentera basyar.
  20. Free Syrian Army yang membela rakyat hanya memerlukan perkara daripada umat Islam ( Kewangan, Ubat dan Senjata )
  21. Purata kematian di hospital atas sebab sakit dan tidak cukup ubat islah 60 orang sehari.
  22. Bsyar sudah setahun tidak membayar gaji kakitangan awam.
  23. Hafiz al-asad mati dalam keadaan kulit pecah-pecah dan berair, dan kepalanya jadi besar pada tahun 2000, Siapa yang berada di Syria mengatakan hari dia mati itu adalah hari yang paling ganas di Syria.
  24. Rakyat Syria sampai sekarang menulis di kereta mereka 'ya Allah, laknati ruh hafiz al-asad' kerana sehingga dia mati, dia tak langsung meminta maaf kepada rakyat.
  25. Syiah bukan Mazhab tetapi agama / Doktrin.
  26. Berwaspada dengan Syiah.
Allahu Akbar!

( Note dari penge'share' )
Sama-samalah kita berjuang membantu saudara-saudara kita di sana dengan 3 Usaha :
  • Sebarkan Maklumat
  • Bantu kewangan dan derma
  • Solat Hajat dan Qunut Nazilah yang berterusan
Syria, Semoga Allah memberimu kemudahan.

# cc : @fathiah nasuha
# di'share'kan oleh : fb, Mark Amenur Ruler

March 9, 2012

The Meaning of my Existance

Till today, I had live my life for 19 years and 4 months, and at last I found the reasons why I was blown with soul and be born as
Siti Nurfatihah Mohd Nasir.

"Accept Allah as master and accept yourself as slave. This guidance only beneficial to those who accept them as slaves..." 
-- His AlQuran AlKarim

( 9:41 )
- menyuruh yang makruf
- mencegah yang mungkar
- mendirikan solat
- menunaikan zakat
- taat kepada Allah dan RasulNya

I learned above sentences since Im 10 years old and learning the true hidden meaning just now at about 9.40pm. Bring me the courage to said this out loud that Im a Muslims and I proud to be one.

# My sweet dear Allah, its a cruel of me to just sitting here typing while my brothers and sisters are fighting for Your special place there. How their courage and amazing determination that never fail to touch my little weak heart. Forgive me of being jealous and forgive me to be such a coward... Amin... #

March 8, 2012

Fever~ I hate You \(^0^)/

These few days, getting the symptoms of maybe a hot-fever coming. Covering my own weak body also sometimes tiring. My ears also felt  like theres 'waves' whispering. Headache cant be avoided. Felt like want to keep jumping on the chair in the class.

So, lately I put on more efforts on keeping me myself healthy. I keep myself to go to bed early, try not to skip my breakfast EVERY morning, eat the multivitamins that mom supplied early in the morning after breakfast each day, keep myself warm every night, wet my hair at least once a day and try to not overdoing something like what I did in my previous semester, I push myself over to a performance night till I get myself 'caught'.

If I felt tired, I force my body to sleep. Thanks to Allah, Im neither a heavy sleeper nor a hard-to-sleep sleeper. But if Allah want me to really have a fever, He must be being sweet and remind 'the-always-ungrateful-of-me' about my sins. >_<"

Having difficulty in keeping myself focus in 口语课 these days. Maybe I need to put some more efforts on it. Yup! Try~ Allah wouldnt put me in a 口语课 if I cant handle one. I have my faith in You :')

March 7, 2012

Dont get confused about me

Since I was a small little girl, running, jumping and screaming around, I like to observe my surroundings more than do actions myself and I got used to when I listen to something, I will then immediately respond. Sometimes the respond is too honest till it is wrong. But no one have never do mistakes. It just me to say what I felt. I never want to be a hypocrite.

Lately, theres something bothering me. What do you think about this...
Well, I never felt teasing people is a kind of jokes somehow cause when I was born, Allah made me smaller than the rest of the kids at my age till I learned to accept people weakness as their amazing specialty rather than a lacking of him/her as a normal human being.

Sometimes if the thing that I observe is interpreted as too sensitive to be said, I will just zipped my mouth, however yup, sometimes it does slipped. MasyaAllah~ Mintak maaf...

There is a  kinda 'protector instinct' in me that is too strong till if u said bad things to my friends, I will punch u straight on your face. Or just said loud in mad straight to your ear ( despite of a very shy person I am, when I get mad, it is just me and nobody around ). Nice cute fist. Just imagine if you said bad things to me, what will I do to U. But I got a weakness, where, I will be more patience toward girls' words. Maybe cause I get used to my elder sisters.

As much as I dont like people teasing me, I would not tease people. Their no-perfect-dialect, their weird accents, their lacking of something in pronunciation, their not perfect physical appearance. No, I will not, and hope will never did such thing. ( If I ever did it to anybody, maybe Im unaware, and deeply sorry >_<" ) Hey, cause I think all of the imperfect shaped of them just making people notice how different they are from the others. See? Cool har?
My sweet Allah, please help me in keeping my words. I love You~

I try to be positive about everything since the beginning of 'know-to-use-brain' of me wake up. As times passed by, I realized that sometimes, the communities negative auras just cant be avoided. Hmmm... Do I have to adapt them, or just let them see the me? Too sleepy to think, lets save it for tomorrow... Night.

I just fall-in-like with this one new quote I come across in Facebook:
"Dont get confused about my personality & my attitude.
My Personality is just who I am
and my Attitude is depends on who You are."
^_^ Sort of, true.

March 6, 2012

The Sweats Dropped

Heart beats rising rapidly when Im doing or facing anything that I like. For example my parents? Singing=_="? a teacher? Cooking? Playing Games... Ahhh... Cant help it... Stupid Stupid... The 'blusher' coming! Hands is sweating, body shivering, I talk like Im not me... Go away~ In this situation, I just want to smile so my eyes are closed and cant see whats in the world is happening to me. Sometimes, smiles does help us a lot.

But when I dont like the things Im doing, I will be just fine and looking cold.
*Jump on bed and cover head with thick blanket*

Also, I easily get bored and easily get excites over something new. Its easy for you to touch my heart in the good way or in the bad way cause its fragile. So be careful...

I got this one habits of reciting 'ayat Qursi' when ever any of the above is going on. Thats the childish part of me... When reciting, I tend to 'out of focus'... 不好意思~

March 4, 2012

The Afternoon Nap & Latenight Thoughts

For the first time after being mentioned and told so many times by Qu Laoshi before, at last, I grab the chance to have a walk at the beautiful human-made river at the back of our university street. Thanks to Nana, sempat snapsnap some pictures too. Im always have this speechless expression looking at Chinese's creative creations, from the very large castle to their smallest gadgets, but hey, Allah is The Greatest, He creates Chinese.

From the walk, I exhausted and actually shivering along the way. I love 30 degree rather than 3 degree. The zero make all the difference. Mungkin sebab dah biasa berjemur panas masa sekolah, dh jatuh cinta pada cuaca panas, pada peluh basah. Itulah ciptaanNya. Disebalik y panas ada yang manis. I take a very good afternoon nap till almost Asar. And now have difficulty to fall asleep.

Got one new information today about how exciting Ireland is. Hope one day have a chance to have a visit there. Experiencing is better than theory and story. They said people there are very 'gentlemen' and describe them as 'Angels-like attitudes'... Hoho, Ireland... May Allah decides whats best. ^_^

And...,

Heard the story of al-Hambra mosque and the obstacles facing by our sisters and brothers in France and Spain. Devastated is the only word to describe its situation now. Again, felt useless. If only I can do more than just praying for their braveness, patience, safety and watching them from distances just to feel what they are experiencing. >~< Allah...


March 3, 2012

Laughs Sew Hearts

Hari ni banyak ketawa... From gathering ngan sister Saadiah yang baru sampai Beijing selepas winter holiday kat Malaysia jap, to Bilik 411 and Bilik 412. Subhanallah, indahnya ciptaan Tuhan, I got many wonderful sisters here and they shone my cloudy day till the cloud said goodbye.

Back to room start to share the many laughs and news that I just 'upload' before with my roomate but felt a little bit guilty for leaving her too long since Maghrib till now she felt tired and fall asleep. 'mianhae... >w<" '

March 2, 2012

Cute Stuff


Cute hor?
Last 4 months, I saw this two BoyGirl statues at the basement store of my university, fall in love with the cuteness, Im asking for the price, but it was too expensive for a little girl with a school bag around. So I left with a heavy heart. Each and every time I went to the basement store I will look at it for a few seconds and left.

After about one and a half month holiday, last week, I went back to the store for a walk. I saw them again. I cant stand it! So I bought them with a price after bargain. Thanks Thanks Thanks~
"Traveling -
it leaves you speechless, then turns you into a storyteller"
~Ibn Battuta
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