Healing

I seldomly ask for help.

social situation, surrounding emotions 

words heard and overloaded social contacts,

really taking a toll on me.

I usually handle my own healing.

Delete and refresh some bad thoughts,

avoiding all tiring and heavy conversation.

I'll sit at one place, accepting myself in its delicate mode.

Undoing stressful scary overthinking images of the future that I can't control

I'll close my ears and shut my eyes,

Try to listen to myself, try to look at myself.

Make peace with things that getting out of my bucket,

Handle it as bad as it is one by one.

I'll cry, breath and pray for courage

Just to wake up and start walking again

Slowly repair what's left.

If I went out and reach for someone,

That is when you know, it's bad.