Holding tight on this sooo Little hopeee

I grew a small compound of edible garden at home. I grew most of them from tiny little seeds. They grew tremendously good despite of me being an amateur gardener.
Other than this lovely garden, 

I have 14 pots of medium size houseplants and a very healthy edible aloe vera arranged near to my balcony inside my house. I grew them since their size only as small as my palm. Now yhe overshadowed my face. 

I love them and care about them everyday.

I cleaned my garden compound every week. 

I make sure dead leaves being taken out every moment

I make sure to fertilize them on time based on my schedule

I wake up early to water them on working days as I need to went out for work by 7am

And eagerly to go home to see if their fruits already turn colour yet or not.

I have a special place for them in my heart and look forward to see them each time I got home.

Now Im at a place 400km+ away from home.

I didnt prepare any backup water for them as I didnt expect my outstation would be this long. 

I cant go back home. 

Im missing them every second, dusk and dawn

Im praying for them

Im worrying about them.

I felt like a cruel human being by being inhuman to them.

I know they need me

I know their basic living needs are unintended

I.... 

I had left them for 23 days.

Every second felt soo sloww... 

Im hoping when Im allow to go back home, I'll see at least one healthy leaf

T_T 

Am so sad.